"Let's get this Bread!"

When I run I often find things. It started with merely picking up coins. Nowadays I find anything from jewelry to bread 🤷‍♀️

When I get up to start my day, I don't typically think, Let's go get this Bread " as some folks say, also meaning "Rise and Grind." I mean, I like to get my hustle on, but I'm not all that street smart. I grew up in Drain and sometimes I need a good reminder. Still, I choose to run before the sun comes up on most days alone. I brave the quiet dark streets of Dallas OR. and I love it. 

Last Tuesday I headed out as usual. I never expect anything much, I just run. It's a rather boring morning routine to most, but every once in awhile something unexpected happens. As I stopped for a brief second to look for coins, I stopped in my tracks!

I was horrified to see that someone actually tossed out a whole loaf of bread 🍞. The other question was, what was in the Bath and Body bag? I desperately wanted to look and possibly eat the bread but I was all alone, in the dark. It kinda creeped me out. I didn't waste any time, I had to get going as the workplace was waiting. I've thought about that bread and wondered how anyone could afford to toss the loaf out? Groceries are expensive lately and I don't like the idea of just throwing it away! I mean, at least give it to someone else 😜

Today was a new day! I met up with a few friends to run in Salem.

We ran loops through three different parks. I rarely find much of anything in these areas. I depend on my running buddies to entertain me the whole time. As we took off and ran over the bridge we came to the second park. We dipped down and started down the sidewalk and there it was, bread! A whole new loaf.

This time it was wheat rather than white but why? Why was this lonely loaf laying out to die? Is "Getting your Bread" more than just getting your daily grind in? Is it really "Giving your Bread to the wild to lay there and die?"

Inquiring minds want to know!!! 

Marathon Training: That's a Rap, Newport Marathon 2022 PART ONE (pre marathon)

Newport Marathon: PART ONE, Pre Race

Some people tell me, why do you run marathons? It's a loaded question and honestly, it would take more than a simple conversation to answer it. Some days I don't know that I could even answer you! But I do know one thing, I know in it's simplest form, it's about a GOAL! 

This weekend I've spent a great deal of time talking with different people about goal setting! One person hit it on the nose! He said, the only way you could get me to even think about running something like a marathon is a goal to work for, like eventually qualifying for Boston! BINGO! That has become one of my "whys." Honestly, I have many more, but that has been exactly it for the last many of years! 

Newport 2022 wasn't my first rodeo! I've run 15 marathon's leading up to this moment and have had many set backs. If it wasn't for goals, I would of stopped running a long time ago. I haven't been able to run well since 2018 when I had an excellent training cycle leading up to Eugene 2018. Before that it was year after year of chasing little goals that slowly climbed into a desire to be the very best runner possible for me! I also hold a strong desire to help others be the very best they can be. It's interesting, those who take this to heart, who truly look at themselves and not compare with others, seem to excel the most. It's so important to remember this. My motto is to be inspired by others, not try to be like others. I have a hard enough time trying to be me, and I feel like being myself is what is the very best.

I went through a struggle of a year back in 2021. I was training for Pacific Northwest Marathon. Half way into my cycle I pulled my calf. I was able to stay consistent in easy running after a few weeks off with PT and taking it easy. I had to drop the thought of a full marathon that year. I waited until I was pain free, dropped some weight and started my climb back into heavy mileage and started back up with a coach. 

It's been interesting as I think back on this last year. A change of jobs has given me freedom to not have to stand all day, giving my feet a break. I also was used to getting up early from my former job position. I used this as a positive excuse to keep getting up very early and running before work. Running before work and having a good chunk of time off my feet while working was a good combo for my training. 

I was able to get through training with no major issues. I was sick once, setting me back a week. That's always expected in a marathon cycle, at least once! I was able to do three pratice races leading up to Newport Marathon. That wasn't just fun, it was three positive experiences. Coming out of no races anywhere due to shut down made for lots of sad runners. 

Most of my training was done with my husband or myself. My friend Tonya would join me when she could in the early mornings as well. I am used to bigger group runs in the weekends so this was a change up. I didn't think I would enjoy it but I felt like it took the pressure off me. I didn't realize how much I needed that for this period in my life. Jerry and I just got up and headed out the door. No planning, no messages being sent out. No big route plans. We just ran and I loved it! I do miss group running and know there will be more of that as we go into summer training (my least favorite time of year.) 🥵

I choose to blog every week during this training cycle in hopes that a few people would be interested in joining me on my little journey. I almost didn't do it. It makes me feel silly at times but deep down I felt I needed to this, even if nobody read it. What ended up happening, was an overwhelming display of encouragement and many really cool conversations. This made my journey so much fun and so much more fulfilling. 

If you need some encouragement getting started in a healthy version of yourself, please reach out! 

.....to be continued 😘

Marathon Training: The Race Newport Marathon 2022

Newport Marathon: (PART TWO) The Race!

975 miles went into leading up to Newport Marathon. The marathon topped off a four month training cycle at just over 1000 miles! 

I don't spend a whole lot of time writing or talking about my training as most people wouldn't be the slightest bit interested or even understand what I'm talking about. That's the grit that's made me a halfway decent runner along with years with years of consistency. I can't stress consistently enough friends, in all areas of life.

Saturday came. Jerry (my husband) and I had stayed the night in Newport as bib pickup was Friday. With the 7:00am race start, we new it was needed. We slept well and got up ready are we could be. I had a horrible headache that had followed me from last week. Horrible headaches galore hasn't been easy lately. Unfortunately it was a crummy week leading up to race day with (weather changes) pressure pain in my body. If you deal with this yourself, you know it's no joke! 

We parked near the finish line and did a slow warm up mile up to the starting line. I was starting to get excited at this point. The fresh ocean air and the mist in my face was just wonderful and refreshing.

At the starting line I ran into a few people I know from races and from Dallas. I got to visit briefly with family and check in with my coworkers who came to support me, Karin and Felix. I handed off my long sleeve top and phone and got into the race shoot. 

7:00am on the dot, runners were off! It was tight at the beginning, but I started in a good place so I never felt boxed in. We weave the neighborhood of Nye Beach, seeing a quick glimpse of the ocean and looped back around the Yaquina Bay State Park. These 3 miles where so fun. There were lots of people out cheering for us runners. The weather was wonderful, 50°s with a mist and people were actually along route that knew me, calling me by name. The first group of women was Molli and Jill's group from Dallas. They were walking up to start the half and Molli yelled, "JULIE!!!! We were just talking about you!" She must of been reading my blogs 🤷‍♀️🤣

I rounded the corner and there was Karin and Felix in all their splendor, signs in hands yelling like two crazy people "JULIE! Go Julie!" Just down the way was Steven and Kristy some running friends heading up to the half. It just keeps going! Next was Brandon and Stacy, waiting to head up for Stacy's big half start and then more friends yelling as I ran back through the park! It a shame the whole race couldn't be lined up like this....lol! I've heard this is how Boston is, the whole way! 

I ran down under the glorious Newport Bridge. In years past I remember a school band playing. This year it was simply lined with cars. Instead of running on the beautiful sidewalk deck that lines the bay, I ran on the cement sidewalk in fear of slipping as it was really wet. 

I made my turn, heading to what would be the finish line in about 3 hours and there was Bob and Tonya! Tonya told me where they would be and she didn't disappoint. She had her RED rain jacket on, ensuring I would see her! I then headed up the nasty hill that didn't seem nasty at all this time. I was at mile 4.5! 

I was heading out away from Newport

towards Toledo at this point. I knew these would be the lonely miles and was prepared mentally to just run!

I was in a good headspace and started just getting into my grove. I often try to make a "friend" so to talk to when racing. It often helps with the long miles. This time I wasn't looking for anyone. A girl I was calling orange shirt seemed to be running a similar pace for a bit. Finally she said, "I'm Lou, what's your goal time?". She seemed to want a little company and so we ran together for a little while. Soon a guy came into our group. His name was Danny. These two people were really awesome. We ran for a while but all had slightly different goal times. Lou beat the 3 of us in the end, 11 month post partum. Simply amazing!  

I made it to the turn a round (mile 15.2) with no issues or self drama, lol! I remember telling myself, it's just a ten mile tempo run back and then a mile into your finish line!!! I started imagining the finish line in my head and I could see my friends waiting for me. I had this! 

Mile 16 I started to feel a twinge of what might be having to use the bathroom really soon. This pissed me off because I don't usually need a bathroom when racing. I was able to keep up my pace for a good mile and begin to think this whole bathroom thing was in my past! 

In the meantime Tonya was making quite an appearance. I didn't think I would see anyone out on this part of the route and there she would be, mile after mile. It was so wonderful! By mile 18 I knew I had to stop to use a bathroom. I knew there was a port a potty at an upcoming aid station, thankfully I made it! I was just so mad. I don't normally swear but I yelled out a swear words as I went into the potty. The spectators and volunteers looked really worried. I lost a good two minutes but I felt a million times better.  As I ran by those worried spectators I yelled, "it a good thing for port a potties!" I felt pretty good for another couple miles, my pace slipping just a bit but not enough to be too worried. 

Mile 22 I started to feel off again. I was glad Tonya kept making an appearance because I knew I would continue to see her at this point. She definitely had come with a plan. Just before I hit mile 23 I had projectile vomit. I've never experienced that before. Usually if anything, I have a little dry heaving but this came out of nowhere! No wonder I was feeling off. I was glad no one was running right in front of me!

I knew I had about 5k left. I totally felt like I could do that but had slowed down. I didn't feel I needed to stop or walk. I didn't feel I wasn't going to make it, I just had slowed down and couldn't seem to get back into my planned pace. 

As I crested the top of the last bit of hill I started my desend to the finish line. The last .2 miles and downhill. I should of been hauling but as I started going down, something in my right side pinched from the inside. I was able to speed up, but not at all like I should have. It hurt! My husband had finished and joined me for a minute. He then started saying, "I can't do this, I have to quit!" A spectator got angry at Jerry, arguing with him, "how can you quit, the finish is right there!" Little did he know, Jerry was already done! 

I heard my name over the loud speaker and crossed the finish line! I had done it! I had

run a sub 3:40, my marathon goal for the last five years. There was all my friends waiting patiently for me. I thought I would cry more but I just cried when Tonya and Kristi hugged me. I think I was too exhausted to cry. After a bit I needed to sit. I was so wet and my head was starting to pound and I was unsure if puking would start up. The cool thing was my friends just seemed to be enjoying the moment with me. As horrible as it sounds, it was glorious. They let me sit and gathered with me in celebration! 

I mentioned my goal being a sub 3:40, it

was my C goal. In running I often make an A, B and a C goal. Typically the C goal would be the worst outcome besides having to walk off the course. I have never been so happy with meeting my C goal in my life. I made huge goals this cycle and shared them more openly then I usually do. I know to reach my A and B goals I have more work to do! Thus the vicious cycle of .... signing up for another marathon! 🤷‍♀️ 

Thank you all who have encouraged me for this training cycle. Every message and comment was read and noticed. My love goes out to you 💗

Marathon Training Week 18: It's go Time

We are only a few days away from 7:00 am, June 4th, Newport Marathon! 

This last week my biggest fear has been getting sick. It's cold season and I know several people who have been, or who are sick. Stay away!!!!! All I can do is take extra vitamins and keep moving forward! I try not to dwell on it. 

My biggest highlight of the week was Saturday's group run! I used to head up a large group run nearly every weekend. As we went into two years of "covid," people weren't meeting as much and races were far and few, if any at all. Training mostly alone has been a change that has actually been enjoyable, but I desperately miss the group. 

Saturday (yesterday) two friends racing Newport half, my husband who's doing the full, and another who's not racing at all met up in Salem. We ran, laughed and just enjoyed the great outdoors. It felt so good to run with others. We all talked about the upcoming Pacific Northwest Marathon and how we should all sign up. I think there will be more group runs in the near future! 

I am still undecided on what I will be wearing on race day. I am having a hard time finding the "perfect" race outfit. I typically have that figured out by now. 

This week is simple, one quality run and a few easy runs. I will then celebrate with the race! It's a celebration of the last four months. A celebration of grit, determination, will power, discipline, and just the desire to dream up a dream, and go for it! It's taken me a long time to get here. It's been worth every step!

Marathon Training: Week 17, "Why Run a Marathon?"

As I sit here, only 12 days from Newport Marathon, I can't help but to reflect on the "why's" of training/running a marathon. People have told me, "you know, you don't have to run a marathon! Why not run something shorter?" I get it! It's a huge time commitment! I've had to really be diligent about when to train and even what time of year to put in the bulk of the work as it is almost like a 2nd job. 

Several years ago my best friend and I joked about running as fast a Oprah Winfrey. In 1994 she crossed the finish line at 4:29:20 with professional help. At the time, that was my goal and it took me a few years to get there! It was hard, but I stayed consistent with what I knew at the time and did it. After that marathon, another friend told me I had the talent to run a sub-4:00 if I trained a little different. I figured I had nothing to lose and simply changed a few things in training. At the time, I didn't believe I was every going to run a sub-4:00 but this friend had way more experience that I did. I did the workouts as I was told and I ran a sub-4:00! I went on to run several sub-4:00 but what about running a Boston Qualifying time? This was not only a joke to me but not even in my realm of thought! At the time, I would need to run much faster, shaving my time down to a sub 3:45. I trained to run a 3:40 to ensure a 5 minute buffer and ran a 3:42. This was with the help of a Coach. This also made me realize I was capable of a lot more than I ever realized. This was four years ago. 

The last four years I have struggled. I know what it takes to train hard and have tired to get back both physically and mentally and have failed. I went through a couple injuries and two years of covid. Races disappeared for the most part and the thought of tossing my money out to run a virtual run seemed not only silly, but a waist of my hard earned money. 

During the last four years I've stayed very consistent and have always know I had that going for me. I changed jobs at the hospital, giving my feet a bit more rest during the day. I got my weight back in check and started running most every day before work as my hours changed too. It was a slow process but eventually I wanted to really train again. 

I signed up for Newport kinda on a whim. I've loved Newport in the past but to be honest was done with it. For some reason I just felt I needed to go back now! It sounded like good timing for 2022 and I had friends who decided it would be really great to do the Newport half, some for the very first time. 

As I focus on my why's, this is what has come out of this training cycle! I've increased my endurance and I know my heart health is well. If you looked at my resting heart rate you wouldn't believe what you saw. My heart doctor even took a second look. 

I have less overall stress. I feel like running is my medication. I have a great deal of stress in an area of my life I don't care to talk about and this helps me stay stable. It's needed. Running faster is even better! 

I am more upbeat at work. Call it a "runners high" call it what you want? I am the happiest person at 7:00 am when the early part of our work team all walks in at 6:59am! 

My Vo2 max had increased over the last four months. Vo2 max is your aerobic capacity. I stand in disbelieve at some of my achievements over the last few months because I've been willing to trust someone with more knowledge than me to get my body into shape. Trusting the process is very hard for me as I get worried for whatever reason, it won't work. As long as you have someone working with you that knows what their doing, just trust them! If you pull up a "free" training plan off the internet, that's fine, but if you really have a time goal, at least have someone with more knowledge look it over and explain they whys? I've seen too many folks not understand the workouts, thus cheating themselves from getting the most out of their training cycle. 

Keeping my blood presser and cholesterol at healthy levels. I do get my numbers checked as I work in healthcare and I'm not getting any younger, I know that keeping this under control is a huge deal. 

My last why is it just it makes me a better person. I feel better and it helps me want to help others. I am outside, in my own head for several hours a week. I am able to get focused on my day. I am able to dream a little. What do I really want for myself and those I will be in contact with for the day? I am able to reach for a goal(s) over time, that I never ever thought I could do! 

The other day, I friend posted this and it struck me hard core! "Just remember 5 years ago, you dreamed about where you are NOW." Don't give up on yourself...EVER! 

I'm ready to go for "my gold!" a Sub-3:30 on June 4th! 

Marathon Training: Week 16, Taper?

We are now less than three weeks out, meaning we've entered "the taper." I'm not a fan of the taper, but know the importance of it. If you are unfamiliar with what the taper  in marathon training, it's the last 2-3 weeks where you reduce the volume and intensity of training. If done correctly, you will line up on race day ready, rested and will be able to run your best race (depending on how your training cycle has gone). 

There are several factors to consider! It's time to get some "extra rest," but not "too much" rest! It's normal to start feeling tired more during these weeks, but if too much rest happens, you won't be in prime shape come race morning. You still have to run! I have been good all this cycle with taking extra time to rest on days I'm tired. Some days, it's just coming home from work and going to bed. On the weekends, it's sleeping in and or an afternoon nap. 

A little weight gain is normal during this time. It won't be much, but it's time to eat a little more carbs. I strongly believe in "health carb" options. It's not an excuse to eat cake every day! It is crucial to keep the "diet" in tack as it can affect performance on race day, big time. 

Coming up with a "race day" plan is something to consider. I actually started this last week for a couple friends who plan on watching the marathon. I planned out my pace/aide station times for my friends. This will ensure they know where and when to find me (want a copy? Just ask). I also started figuring out what I will be wearing on race day. I am waiting to be a little closer for a better forecast but I like to race in a tank and shorts/skirt! I have a few to pick from so I just need to narrow that down. 

The "taper crazies", sometimes known as "taper tantrum" is my biggest reason to hate the taper. I do not like to think about having to do less quality training runs. That has been what I've done for 3.5 months. I will still do some, but not as many. It'll feel off. Runners are creatures of habit, so this part sucks. I've had the best training cycle of my life and yet doubt and fear is beginning to set in. It also comes with the excitement of knowing I could really do want I want to do and what I trained for. See why it's crazy???

During the taper, many experience what I like to call "phantom pains." This is something I've not only experienced, but have seen many runner friends go through it. Pain during the taper are simply tissues repairing themselves on a microscope level. A person will often experience muscle cramps as the body adapts. This will make a runner think they are injured and will never be able to pull off the race! It's madness!

I will still be running a lot in the next couple weeks and this taper period is all part of the process. It's just going to be a different type of running. I do know if I play my cards correctly, It'll all pay off on June 4th. 

On June 4th I will line up at 6:50am for my 6th Newport Marathon. I've mostly trained alone this time around. I have had enormous support from not only other runners who have watched my journey, but non runners who have heard about my craziness and somehow can related it to a different area in their life. It's pretty cool. I have had my husband to run my long runs with on the weekends. I have to say that this has been very enjoyable! In the past I've loved having lots of people on the weekend long run. This "lack of folks" has given me freedom to sleep in more and go out at my pace and my pace only. I have pushed my pace on a couple weekends as my husband can run faster. We have had a lot of fun. This has only benefited my training. I've always listened to my body and backed off when needed. 

I don't know that I'll have anything to write about next week, but we'll see what comes up! 

🥂 Cheers to the taper crazies!!!!

Marathon Training: Week Fifteen

My biggest question this week is, "how in the world are we already at week 15?"

Seriously! A marathon training seems like it's long, yet it goes by so fast. As much work as I do, as well as it goes, I'll never feel 100% ready. It's part of the deal. The marathon is a hard race. I will do my very best in training all the way up until race day, June 4th. I will not be sure how the weather will be that day or how I will feel when I wake up that morning. I will continue to focus on what I can control and that's getting up every day and doing my workout. I will bank on my training to get me to the finish line because the marathon won't run itself.

The one thing I have learned from training for marathons is you cannot fake it to the finish line. You have to put the work in. You have to run the miles, and you need to have a good mindset. If the weather is bad, suck it up and trust your training. 

This last week I was pretty exhausted. Not just from training, but from other things in my life. I'm actually thankful for the training right now. Although training like I do could become a stressor in daily life, it's become a stress relief for me. The running early before work sets up my mind and body for a better day. I feel accomplished and strong. I get to clear my head and have time to myself. I have greatly benefitted from "simply showing up for myself." 

Are you having trouble getting started or showing up for yourself? I've found a few things that have helped me, so maybe they'll help you 😘

Write down your workout schedule monthly and go over it weekly. Schedule the workouts like a dentist appointment. I find if I think of it as an appointment, I just do it. 

Ask someone to meet up with you. If you're having problems getting out the door, meeting a friend may help. When I schedule to meet my friend, I am way more likely to show up.

Set out your workout clothes the day before. This makes getting going less stressful. Everything is out and ready for you to get moving. 

Make up a new playlist. When I workout alone I often listen to music. Some people prefer a good podcast. Whatever the case, this is really helpful in getting that workout in.

You are in charge of your own thoughts and actions. Please hit me up if you're wanting to be more active and need help getting started. You are worth it! 

Marathon Training: Week Fourteen (Eugene Half Marathon)

Week fourteen was a week I was anticipating. I couldn't wait to run Eugene Half Marathon for a number of reasons. 

I ran my best full marathon here back in

2018, the last time the finish was on Hayward field. This year it was in the new stadium. Eugene is Track town USA and holds so much running history. Just Google it, there's so much to see. 

This half was built into my training for two reasons. One, I just wanted to run Eugene as I love it so. Two, I wanted a race 4-5 weeks out from Newport to see how training was going as a test and to let my body and emotions go through the race process for a really good practice. 

I'm not going to make anything up here. Racing is hard. Although my mental game is way up and I feel stronger than ever, it's always a thought, "what if I can't do it?" At Shamrock ☘️ 15k (9.3 miles with hills) I ran a 7:22 pace. It's a bit difficult to compare that course with Eugene. Eugene does have some hills but nothing like Shamrock and I will be running about four more miles for the test of endurance. 

In July 2018 I ran my fastest half to date. I ran a 7:31 pace, finishing at 1:38:34. It was also a mostly downhill course, making for a really fast time. I was told by at least three people to not count that time into trying to PR again. Does a downhill even count? I realize what I was being told and set that time to the side but I haven't forgotten. I still remember what it felt like at points in that race and how it got really hard the last couple miles. Some races you never forget.

May 1st 2022. Going into Eugene I am a stronger, more advanced runner. I still make mistakes but there's no doubt in my mind, that I am ready to give a PR (personal record) a try again. I decided not to disregard my 1:38:34 time. If I take a look at training, I should be able to run a 7:33 pace, not quite enough to PR that 7:31 pace but oh so close. I decided 7:30 isn't too much to ask of my body for the condition I am currently in.

I started in corral B, the 2nd wave of runners. We started at 7:01am. I was quickly frustrated as I was boxed in. This is typical for large races. I made the best of it and just started weaving around other runners. It did give me something to focus on. This went on for a long time. For miles really. There was always people around me. I would catch up to the larger "pace groups" and there was a huge mass of folks to go around. One thing I've learned is just just own it and go around. Don't spend your energy getting irritated, It's all part of the race.

The course took me back to 2018, the emotions, each step and even the memories of the friends I made in the course last time. This time was different. I didn't want to talk to anyone. I would pretend a person I was my friend for a while but no talking this time. I just let my mental be focus and I was locked in! 

We started going up a small hill but I had

warmed up pre race, I was ready. My first mile was a slower one but it's the pace I thought I would run for the day for a slight PR, right about 7:30. I still was weaving people but started to settle into a pace and was feeling really good. The weather was ideal and the company was great. 

Mile two was definitely on the fast side but I realized I was speeding up each time we went by a crowd. The crowds cheers do push me through in a very positive way. Mile three - five were on point. I was running strong and was zoned into my race. I remember the feeling of "I could run like this forever, I feel so good." I didn't want to put out too much yet, as it was way too early and it can come back to haunt you later in the race. 

Miles six and seven. Definitely feeling good and there were crowds. I knew I possiblity could regret this but I am so used to running 8-10 miles at a time now in training, the half distance (13.1 miles) isn't imidating. At this point I was halfway and just had to run back to the stadium. Mental toughness, this is where it pays off. 

Mile eight I got back down to the pace I felt comfortable at, but then we started back up the hills again, only this time I wasn't fresh anymore. Miles nine through eleven were harder than I cared for but I still was feeling pretty in control of my race overall. 

Mile twelve I got back into my pace and was hoping to pass people. I played my passing games as we ran on Pre's Trail and although I was starting to feel the aches and pains of racing, I never once thought I couldn't do this. 

At one and a half miles out, I had my weakest moment. I had just passed two

female runners and got scared they would pass me back because I was feeling it. I soon hear a Man yell out from behind, "Let's go team. Only six laps on the track left. We got this " as the Man, or should I say Coach went by I thanked him for his words and he let out a, "relax those arms" or something of the sorts and I did exactly what he said. I realized I had started to tense up a bit. This got my head back where it needed to be as mile thirteen was my slowest. It was closer to marathon pace and this race was only half of that. 

As I got closer to Hayward field I started to feel emotional. We were running down a blocked road now that would lead us right onto the track. Even writing this today makes me emotional. I remember letting out a dry heave just before turning onto the track. I feared I would have to slow down to keep from barfing. I then thought, this is a new track, if I barf in the new track I will be mortified. I tucked that though away, turned the corner and I was in Hayward field! I ran the last .1 miles at. 6:55 pace and let the moment sink in! 

I crossed the finish line and doubled over as I do when I've run my best. Jerry was right there and I said "hi" and walked over to the side thinking I may lose it. Suddenly I was handed a barf bag like the ones we had at work and I realized I was being watched. I think the volunteers were thinking I may need medical. 

I never did throw up, I had my moment. I told the folks looking out I was totally fine and walked over with Jerry as we waited for more friends to come in. I felt like 1000 bucks.

The sun was now starting to break just a little, but boy was it cold. Perfect running temps are only perfect running temps. It was still in the 40's. 

I sit here, the next day full of emotions. I ran the half well, but not perfect by any means. I definitely ran the first half too fast and had to hold on. I did feel strong the whole time, even at my weakest point in the race. I was able to run this morning (Monday) with no signs of overdoing it for the race yesterday. My fear is injury. I continue to really listen to my body and continue to put the work in each week. 

Newport Marathon is four and a half weeks out. I'm feeling pretty alive lately! Tired, yet so alive! 

Oh, by the way. I PR'ed my half time and I counted the downhill race from four years ago! 1:36:59 (7:25 pace). 

Marathon Training: Week Thirteen - Consistency

 This last week I have done a good job keeping my miles going up. I've known for years, to get to the next level, I must put in a little more work. Guess what? It's working! 

 There's a difference between training to get to the finish line and

and training to hit a goal time-personal record time that will ensure getting into Boston 2023 and the struggle is real. 

 I trained hard in 2018 and did just that. It was the first year in history that the time I ran, qualified me for Boston "19 but wasn't good enough as more and more runners are trying to get in every year. I qualified in Eugene and then registered with a qualifying time, only to be told it wasn't good enough. Heartbreaking! I had worked so hard, ended up messing up my foot a bit and had a really difficult time getting back into a training mindset. 

I still stayed consistent, that's something I do well. I ended up going through some struggles, one being Norton's Neuroma in my left foot. The treatment injections got to be pretty brutal but was thankful for a no surgery option. 

I tried to get back into training and I struggled big time with mindset. Covid soon hit, so races started being a thing of the past for a couple years. I still stayed consistent.

As races started coming back, I tried to get back into training and again, injured myself. This time it was my left calf, as training was getting up in miles and intensity. I had to take a big look at what was going on and scale back. I stayed consistent in what I could do as I healed. 

As we came out of covid I was dealing with injury and needed something to focus on so I started working on my body. I knew my body needed a good check to be ready to start training again once my calf healed. I stayed consistent and dropped over 15 lbs. 

I was now feeling really good once again. I started healing and slowly, smartly getting my miles up, and was back into training the end of January 2022. 

For the first time since 2018 my mind has been on fire. I have been more focused than ever and my training is going better than I've ever experienced. At this point I need to keep moving forward while really listening to my body. One wrong move and I could face injury, taking me out for June 4th's marathon. 

I'm not going to let that happen! 

 This coming Sunday I run Eugene Half Marathon. My goal time is doable according to my training times, but will also be hard. It will be a PR (personal record) I once thought I would

never ever come close to again. Eugene will also be fun. I have friends coming to run the half too. I love meeting up with running friends at the races. Finishing on Hayward field will also be my reminder that come June 4th, my training will take over and I will run my race! Hayward field is where I stepped over the finish line as a Boston Qualifier in 2018. I dropped to the ground as soon as I finished. My husband and a volunteer grabbed me and pulled my body up and over to the side. I had given it my all and I will never forget that moment. 

Marathon Training: Week Twelve! #foundchange?

Running in my hometown, Drain Sunday

 As I finished up week twelve, I was reminded that many don't know why the heck I collect coins when I run? If you follow me on social media, you'll see I find coins all the time. I definitely find more as we move into the warmer part of the year and people have been asking why?

 This week had been good. I continue to run on schedule and pace. Sometimes it scares me as I know anything can happen. Any day something could happen to mess up everything I've worked for thus far. I cannot let that get in the way. My mental training is going well too, better than ever. I do not take any training run for granted. Each time I lace up, run and head back into my house, I am thankful for my strength this cycle.   

 Some dates to look forward too! Eugene Half Marathon, May 1st. This race was sprinkled into training as a race predictor. It's placed nicely at five weeks before Newport Full. It'll give me a really good idea of what I'll be able to handle come race day on June 4th! I'm really excited to finish this half on Hayward field in Eugene. The first time I qualified for Boston was at Eugene Marathon 2018 on Hayward field. The stadium has been rebuilt since I ran there in 2018. It's much more grand and holds so much history. It will be a great honor to step foot on that track, once again. I cannot wait! 

 I started collecting found change years ago after reading an article about a Man in NY who picked up coins as he ran. I was a new runner myself and lived in a small town in Oregon but thought, "I'm going to start looking." I soon found a coin and it continued until I had a small jar full. I started another and then another. I started knowing the best places to find coins and of course, you just never know when

there will be one along the sidewalk. I've saved up close to $200 now. I am running Newport with an attempt to qualify for Boston Marathon 2023. When I register, I will use my #foundchange to get into Boston. I am hoping that my friends and those reading start saving change too. I will need help getting to Boston and I believe that change will get me there! It's going to be grand! 

 I know the next month and a half will go fast! I have high hopes for myself and the hard work is paying off. 

Marathon Training: Week Ten

 Week ten has come and gone with the wind. It's been a good week.

 

I had a very strong training week with no setbacks. I'm  having some days of pretty extreme tiredness but also days of extreme energy. I know this is normal with heavy training and just try to get a little extra sleep when needed. 

This last week I had a great talk with a running friend about "training." She loves to train, probably more than the race itself. Training can get pretty demanding and gruesome. Training can also be extremely rewarding. This is what my friend is experiencing now, and it's the same for me. We are both reaping the "gains" or "rewards' for our consistency, hard work, and being willing to do the work. It feels really fabulous.

 Getting up at 3:45-4:00am isn't for everyone. It's a choice that I made to get the work in. The work is paying off and the paces I'm currently hitting are paces I've never thought I could run in my adult life. I'm overwhelmed with gratefulness this week. 

 Just a reminder, people are watching. Something it feels like they aren't and all the hard work doesn't really matter. I was reminded this week that is does matter and eventually someone says something. I know, most people will ever fully understand what I do to make training a possibility in my life, and that's okay. I still hope to show y'all a little piece of what I do to help you move forward in a positive way in your life. 

If you are taking the time to read this, love to you 😘

Marathon Training: Week 9 (What if I get Sick?)

 A big question in Marathon training is, " What if I get sick?" I mean, with a four month training cycle, something is bound to happen, right? 

Week Nine started off a little rocky. I had ran a 20 mile training run last Saturday and reported in my last blog how the last couple miles where really difficult. I figured it was the warmer weather that day or allergies as I did run through the beautiful cherry blossoms 🌸 

Sunday I did do my recovery run just fine but by Monday I felt terrible. I still thought it was allergies but decided to take an early "rest" day. I only walked Monday and that's not like me as I have Monday's off and it's a good opportunity to start the week off with some good mileage. 

Tuesday I needed a quality workout. I actually had x5 mile repeats at a decently fast pace. I got up before work, knowing the worst that can happen is I feel horrible and don't finish. I set out at 4:30 am in ideal running temps and after a good warm up, killed my workout and felt great all day long. 

Wednesday I ran easy, and off my "allergies" went again. The running helped clear my head, but as soon as I stopped, all the congestion and head pain came back. I got ready for work and a coworker came in with my favorite, cold brew with one pump chocolate. I do work with the most amazing people 🌷 As the day went on I felt worse. I have chronic headaches so I am used to not being at my best, but it was feeling different. I couldn't focus, I could hardly keep my eyes open and after realizing I was snapping at my coworkers, I asked to go home. I went right to bed! 

The next two days were rough. It was definitely more than "allergies" I learned many people had or were getting over a nasty cold. Guess it was my turn. I did nothing but rest. At one point my ear hurt so bad I thought I might have an ear infection. 

It is often said, you will probably get sick at some point during marathon training. I chose a four month advanced plan. I would be lying to myself to think I wouldn't have at least one bad week. The middle of training is one of the best times to get sick. 

Guess I got that over. 🤷‍♀️

By Saturday I was feeling better enough to at least try running. It was my long run day. I set out that morning with my husband, knowing I may just come back home. As I've run and trained my body over the last 14+ years, I've become really in tune with my body. When to push it and when I need to stop. I've definitely not perfect at it but I'm pretty good. 

I ran a slow warm up and then settled into my pace for that day. After that, I didn't think about it too much. I just ran and was ok. I did have some mild stomach issues as I was coming off being sick and had to nap after, but I did it! 

Sunday was recovery and I knew that going into week ten would be ok. 

For a week of having to be sick, I still got in 2 out of 3 quality workouts and 2 out of 3 recovery runs. I usually have an active rest day and used it as a rest rest day but, at least the week wasn't a total loss. 

For those of you who take the time to read "the mind of a distance runner" (this blog). I love you! I love how you share with me how you relate in other ways in your life. Training and finishing the marathon distance has taught me so much about life in general that has nothing to do with running. I love how some of you see that in my writing. 

Cheers to week TEN! 

Marathon Training: Week 8, Half Way to the Finish Line!

 

Going into week eight I was a good feeling. I knew the week would start and end with a quality workout, but be full of easy building miles all throughout the week, my favorite! I started my Monday with a solid quality run, looping Dallas! I felt good and I embraced being where I am in my training plan. I'm two months in, with two months to go!

 The week went as planned, lots of miles and I indeed got my mileage up to the next level, just as planned. The next two months will get pretty intense, but I have my head on straight. I'm doing a good job not overthinking the process and also trusting the process. When using a training plan that has been built for you, your level of consistency and your current goals, it will still be difficult. To get faster, one must push the body, without breaking it. That's a hard math problem to figure out! 

 I had an interesting conversation with a co-worker this week who has enjoyed my training blogs but has no interest in running. She talked about a time in her life where she learned something new and scary to her. A big goal in her life. Its something that still lights up her eyes when she talks about it. She shared how she relates to my running goals by what she when through to get to the goal she had set for herself in that time in her life.

 I loved our conversation so much. It was a reminder that I'm not so crazy after all. Setting my big scary goals are positive. I'm not wasting my time and in the process, I'm bettering myself in all areas of my life. 

My favorite run of the week was my hardest one! My husband and I ran our 20 miler in Salem this weekend. I wanted a change of route and I desperately wanted to run through our State Capitol Park's Cherry Blossoms. We started at Salem's Riverfront. I love running there. We ran over two bridges and into three different parks. For the last four miles we ran all over downtown Salem and did a couple loops through the Cherry Blossoms. We started later than we usually do, and it was the warmest and muggiest it's been in training so far. It didn't help that my legs felt fatigued. At mile 18 I stopped for a moment and talked to Jerry about walking the last two miles. Both of use wanted the run to be over. We also knew that walking two miles would take twice as long! Ugh! We started running again and just did it! After, we talked about how tempting it was to walk but we really needed to run the last two miles. We did it just fine. It wasn't fun but we are conditioned do this type of mileage. Isn't that why we do the training runs? Sometimes it's more mental training than we even realize. We really needed to run it out Saturday. This is exactly what I've gone through when racing. You come to a spot in the race when you have to decide, will I run it in and complete my goal or stop? 

I chose to keep running! 

 At the end of that 20 miles I looked back at my splits. As fatigued and hot as I got, I stayed consistent and ran a really solid long run. Cheers to the next eight weeks for training! 

Training GOALS, if overthought, it's easy to think you can't do it for all the reasons! Believe me, there are so many reasons! I have chosen to get up each morning and just do it. I want this, and I have nothing to lose. If I fall short, life will go on! If I do it, I will have something no one can take from me!

Marathon Training Week 7, WHY Settle?

 Last weekend a good running friend asked me what my goal was for Newport Marathon. I let her know I was training for a 3:35 marathon. She asked why? All I need to for a BQ (Boston Qualify) for my age group/gender is a sub 3:50. I thought long and hard how she responded. She asked a legitimate question. Why would I train for a 3:35 when all I need is a 3:50? Why risk it? Risk it, meaning, what if I go out too hard and fall apart out on the course, I could be risking it all? 

 This last week was a hard training week. I'm going into block two, meaning more miles, more intensity and the more my mental better be on! I know I was being challenged as I had a couple days I felt grumpy at work. Work is good, so I know it was simply me, feeling the training. I got through the week, got in some extra sleep and did all my workouts. No one at work snapped at me. I think some of my co-workers question my "why" yet some are really intrigued by the whole idea of training for a marathon.

 This training cycle continues to freak me out in a good way. My training continues to be on point, even as I tip over into the harder workouts. I feel the strength growing in my body and continue to feel like "I can do this." In some of my past training cycles this has not been the case. Some, I couldn't hit my times as I wasn't training properly for the condition I was currently in. Some, I could hit my times, but my head was so unsure of myself, I was my own worst enemy. I see this a lot in runners. Runners minds get in the way! I truly believe in getting help from a more advanced running friend or get yourself a coach. They will do the math/thinking for you and you just simply trust the process. 

 I go into this week knowing I worked my a** off the last three weeks. This week I get to let my body heal and work more on mileage build up. The next nine weeks are going to go by fast, yet take forever! Some people like to compare marathon training to pregnancy. I don't like to do that. I've had three babies and ran 15 full marathons. I get how each pregnancy/training cycle is different, but the comparison is far different in my eyes. I don't ever want to be pregnant again, yet I chose to train my body to do better for this upcoming marathon. 

Newport Finish Line....I'm dreaming about you!!!! I see you when I go out alone in the dark. I see you when I put on my rain jacket because it's a Spring downpour outside. I see you when I look at my quality workout and say, what do I have to lose? I see you when I have to go to bed early because I need to run before work the next morning. That's why I am able to say, I'm training for a sub 3:35 marathon and I will NOT settle for a sub 3:50. I can do this and I see myself doing it. Why oh why would I settle for anything less? 

Long run out and back to Rickreall,
the headwinds almost killed me off!  

Marathon Training: Week Six

 Week Six started right on schedule. All of my training runs were "on point" and I will even go a step further to say, my training runs are going better than I had expected. I've had good training cycles and bad training cycles. There is a huge difference. When you are training at your correct pace for the shape you're in, you can advance as a runner. I do suggest having someone "coach" you or at least reach out to a runner who has many years under their belt. There is math and formulas involved in training and many people miss that and or don't know how to figure it out! It's ok to ask for help, I do it all the time! If you don't have a goal, no biggie, but I have always competed with myself. I want to advance as an athlete if my body allows and I need the help!

The last few weeks, as I've prepped for Shamrock 15k, I've been raising funds and love for Mason, a 13 year old who is battling Hodgkins Lymphoma. I simply asked folks to donate $15 and I would run the 15k. Together we could pray for the family. The outpour from co-workers, running friends and the community has been amazing. I was blessed to meet up with Mason and his family a couple days before the race, give Mason his cash (over $2400) and he gave me a running shirt. It was a moment I will never forget! 

My husband ran the 15k with me. We got up Saturday for our scheduled "long run" but it was different this week as we both planned on racing Sunday. It was a shorter long run but we both ran it strong and then headed to Portland. The Shamrock Expo was so grand! It was smaller than years past, but considering the last two years had been canceled due to the pandemic, I was just happy to be back! We got our race bibs and checked out the different vendors and met up with a few running friends. It was all so good! 

That night we stayed in a hotel on the waterfront side of downtown, ensuring a faster route for post race. We have parked downtown before and been blocked in for an hour! After Shamrock you can ensure you will be a wet cold mess so getting trapped downtown isn't a fun way to end the weekend. Our hotel was also 2 miles from the starting line! This would ensure that we would get a proper warm-up and cool-down in no matter what! 

The race didn't start until 8:55am and we woke up to high winds and low 40's that felt much colder. A running friend met us at the hotel that morning and all three of us headed out into the elements to do our warm-up/head to the starting line. It was about 7:50am! The warm-up miles did me a whole lot of good! It got my muscles warm and calmed my nerves! We got to the starting area with plenty of time to use the restroom and to visit with a few more running friends. As Jerry, Sandy and I came to a walk at the starting line, I was overwhelmed with happiness! Races are back! It's been a long two years and I didn't realize how much I truly missed it! We could hear the band playing, post race goodies were being set up! An announcer was saying all the things we love to hear but don't really listen too! The lines of port-a-potties! Seeing runners waiting with garbage bags over them to stay warm and dry! Seeing my running friends live, in person and not just on social media! It was all perfect! 

After all the pre-race rituals, it was time to line up! I love how Shamrock does this. It's a huge race so it must be organized! First you get into the shoot and find the pacer with the pace you are planning to run. I knew I wanted to run about 7:30 but I stood with the 8:00's. I wasn't doubting myself, I just wanted to be smart about this. The 7:30 pace group was smaller. I also know better than to start too fast. The Shamrock announcer told us to make our walk! We walk down and turn-a-round right in front of our starting line! I was in the first group that was sent off! The 15k course is described as "No joke, after conquering Terwilliger Blvd., waving at OHSU, and running through the Barbur Tunnel, you'll' have all the bragging rights and that green beer. Plus, once you reach mile 5.5, it's all downhill." 

Lining up to start

With that description and the fact that I've run this before, I knew it was going to be up, up, up and more up before I could come down. We started with a gentle up that didn't let up. I ran the first two miles with Jerry. I was confused by this as I knew either I was running too fast or he was running too slow. I was feeling really great so I just went with it. I knew if I didn't hold my own going up the hills, I wouldn't PR (personal record) today. A wise coach once told me just before I ran Shamrock, "don't let up on the up-hills, get to the top, I promise you will recover." This was a coach who was working with me and knew I could handle the hills but I needed to hear that. I've never forgotten it so I kept saying it over and over to myself. I also was so focused on this day that I could truly feel my "race mode" was on! It felt amazing to be in control of myself. 

So often in racing we let our heads get in the way. We tend to overthink and then our anxiety hits to fan and we start too fast, start too slow or just give up before we even start. With the years I've had to build my base, I've really focused on my mental game and gotten lots of help knowing how to be in control of MY race!

After mile two, Jerry decided to put on the gas and took off! I never saw him again. I was glad to see him move on as he should be running faster than me in any race. We were still climbing but we hadn't hit the hardest hill yet! We did a little turn-a round on S. Barbur Blvd and took a sharp left to go up SW Capitol Hwy and onto Terwillger. It was around mile four and it was by far, the hardest mile! My pace dropped during this mile but it was to be expected. I stayed in "race mode" despite my hill pain. I knew I would recover!!!! 

I now had made it to the first part of Shamrock that I love! Terwillger hill. I love running this hill loop. It's not only challenging but it's beautiful. You do have to go up, but you also have some down time and I fly. It's a feeling you don't get when running on the flat. This crazy loop also gives you a glimpse of OHSU where so many like Mason are receiving care. It always hits me when I get to this part. 

As we head back onto Barbur Blvd I tend to have to just blank out and run. Heading back up to the turn-a-round is rather boring and painful. I do enjoy picking a good fight with other runners at this point. They have no clue I'm doing it but I can pick people who are running a similar pace and I can test myself. If I can get behind them, draft off them for a bit and then pass them, I win! It's really fun in larger races as there as so many more runners to pick from. 

As we finally made it to the 2nd turn-a-round I hear my name from the other side! Someone I knew was cheering me on and it was really nice. As I turned onto SW Naito Pkway to go back down the hill we started on, I began my flight to the finish line. This is another part of Shamrock that keeps me coming back for more. The last 1-1.5 miles is a gentle down hill (except for the small part it's not!!!) and I feel like I'm flying. It's a beautiful experience. This is where it also gets gritty! You can see the finish line but it's still a long ways away. If you overrun, you may die! I knew for this last mile I needed to put the peddle to the medal. I had run too good of a race thus far to toss a PR out the window. So I flew! I was running fast! I came to mile 9 and got the nod of approval from a wise coach who taught me how to run hills and endure the distance as he glanced at his watch. I had .3 to go. That's over a lap around the track. Not much, but so far! I had a quick moment of wanting to let up so badly as I felt the stomach roar with warning that I may be pushing my luck! I didn't let up! Soon I saw the 7:30 pacer. I thanked him for being out there that day and passed him right up! As soon as I crossed the finish line I put my arms up in celebration and got the nod of approval from Jerry, who stood there watching me come in and looking so proud. I remember someone handing me a medal, I said thanks and then walked over to the side and dry heaved two times. I turned around and a volunteer had come over. She looked worried. I was totally fine. It was a minor heave that I had to just loose. Ha! I turned off into the finisher area feeling like I had just won the gold! I had beat myself! I got my PR, I felt really strong and I had completed something really hard for Mason.

These Girl Scouts got it right, having a booth here.

I was too cold to do much more but we did get some snacks and visit with some friends before heading back to our hotel to head home. This morning the aftermath has been minor. I'm less sore than my race a few weeks ago and I ran it much harder. I am very pleased with how this race played out. The foot issue I talked about last week is still there but I feel like it's under control. I've got the help of the PT's at work who have shown me how to tape myself up and what I should be doing daily to keep to from getting out of control and stronger. 

As I go into week seven I am reminded how important community is. The community has come together so well for Mason and the community has given me so much support. It's nice to have a few people interested in my running stories and to know some of you care so much you are willing to stalk my house while I'm at the races! ~Love to you all!!!! 

I did it! PR 1:08:44, 7:22 pace, 2nd in division 

Marathon Training Week Four and Five, The Little Things!

  

Week four went totally fine, I just didn't feel like writing last weekend. I actually had a person ask me if they missed week four as they hadn't seen it? I guess at least one person out there is reading this! Ha! 

I have been a bit more tired lately but overall feeling so much better in general. Getting in shape tends to do that to a person. I have taken the weekends to sleep more and even allow a nap if we are just hanging around at home. I have been having a slight discomfort in my left foot. No surprise here. If I have an issue it's always the left foot. I injured it in the 8th grade. As an adult have sprained it at least three times and was diagnosed with Norton's Neuroma a year or two ago. I was told get a series of injections or surgery. The injections worked but were painful. The last one the doctor told me I had to decide how many I wanted as far as the pain level goes. Pain meaning how much am I will to live with for the rest of my life? I left after 7 or 8 knowing I should get one more. I still feel it when I run hard but, I know it's not something that's hurting me long term. The current issue in my foot feels minor but I want to keep it minor! I work with a several Physical Therapist so I decided to take advantage of that! About 8 days ago I asked one of them to take a quick look and wrap my foot up. It helped. After a few day's I gave my feedback and he took another look and told me my foot was weak! I have to be honest, I was shocked, but then I thought about it and it all made sense. It's totally weak as I've never fully rehabbed my foot. I've been doing the exercises he recommended and I'm happy to report that it's working. It's amazing how a little extra work, makes a HUGE difference! 

I am going to continue wrapping my foot for now as I need the extra support and I will defiantly do my exercised daily. Training for a marathon is taxing on the body, but if done properly it'll make you stronger. Not only physically, but mentally. 

My quality runs continue to be on point. I honestly feel stronger than I think I ever have as a runner right now, yet racing is the real test! My next race that I've worked into marathon training is this coming Sunday! Portland Shamrock 15k. I have big goals! 

 In 2018 I was in really good shape and ran Shamrock 15k at 1:09:33 (7:28 pace). I believe I can do better this year. It's going to be hard and I will have to fight for it but I have to try! 

I am also choosing to race Shamrock as a platform to bring awareness to a 13 year old's recent cancer diagnosis. I work with this Young Man's Mother and his story hit me hard. I will be adding the deets on this at the end of this blog. There's really easy ways to be involved in helping this family if we all do just a little bit. I've learned over the years that all the little things, add up to make a HUGE difference. Not just in life, but training as well. Don't ever think that something small doesn't matter! 

Pass the Mason Jar

Mason Ball was recently diagnosed with Hodgkin's Lymphoma. He's an 8th grader at Santiam Christian School.  He's a very social young man who enjoys sports.

Currently we are at just under 2k

How can we do a little to help a lot? On Sunday March 12th I will be running Portland Shamrock 15k. The course will take my right by Doernbecher OHSU where Mason's going weekly for the next 6+ months for treatment. As I train, I pray for this family and I will run that race praying for Mason. I am asking that you give $15. $15 isn't very much but together is will add up. They money that comes in will go 100% to Mason and his family to do with what they see fit. They will be making many trips to Portland and will need gas and food money on top of the bills. 

Please partner with me as I pass the Mason Jar. I will run 15k, can you give $15? I am currently taking Venmo, cash or check's for the family. All funds that come in, even after the 15k will be given directly to the family. 

Marathon Training: Week 3

 Week three started with nice easy miles. As I went out to my first quality workout of the week, I reminded myself how quality workouts used to really stress me out. I think it was due to a couple of reasons. I didn't have as much "experience" in serious training. I wasn't as strong as I currently am and I doubted myself. I almost always overthought the workout! 

 Although training isn't always easy, I go about it a little different than I used too. I try to leave the thinking to my coach. This is hard and I still struggle with it. I have proven to myself I can run the pace I'm training for! If I don't hit pace for one run, I will be ok and I'm not a failure. Chances are, I'll have a bad run or two in the mix! The big picture is the math problem leading up to June 4th, the marathon. One or two bad runs are expected. 

 This week ended with a race. Last week I talked about "being tested." I like to work in a few races during marathon training, not only get a good strong workout in, I need to go through the emotions of "race day" as it's pretty intense emotionally and physically. Going through this is extremely helpful and I feel necessary to do at least once. I will be doing two more races during my training cycle leading up to Newport. Each race will be much shorter than the marathon but all will be hard as shorter races are run at a faster pace, testing my abilities to handle the pressure come June 4th. Running has so much mental in it! If you don't practice the mental practice races and training runs, you are missing it big time! 

 Yesterday I had a chance to practice. I stayed nice a calm pre race. My husband raced too. We arrived in plenty of time to get our race bibs, go use the bathroom and then do a warm up. The warm up is always important but I felt even more so this morning as the wind made it bitter cold and we would be running HILLS! It ended up being colder than I thought with the wind chill so at the last minute I decided to wear a light long sleeve, rather than my usual race tank.  We started from the finish line on gravel going slightly up hill. The hill didn't bother me but I did start boxed in by other runners. The slower runners were a slight problem and the gravel felt slick. I carefully weaved through the runners and found my pace group. 

I took the first incline really well, and then headed downhill like a speeding bullet. I was playing back and forth with a lady in a purple shirt. After about 1.5 miles in, I realized purple shirt and I were neck n neck for women's 3rd place! The 2 women in 1st and 2nd were young and extremely fast. They were going to have there own battle and I wouldn't be in it! Ha! I decided it was time to duke it out with purple shirt. I had to find out who was the stronger runner so I gave her one for her money, She gave it right back. I love this game! It's really a fun part of racing. After we passed back and forth a few times I really pushed the pace as we headed back up the hill. As I got to the top and got to cruse for a bit I realized my game had worked. I had broke her! She wasn't on my tail anymore! I wondered when she would be back? Would I break??? 

I hit the halfway point and headed down hill FAST! I knew I would have to come back up this hill to get to the finish line and it was going to be hard! I got to mile 4.5 and had to turn around and go back up the steep hill, over a mile long! Was I even going to make it? 

At this point you can give up and walk because nobody really cares if you do or not, you can walk off the course because it's hard or you can dig deep and say, what if I actually make it to the finish line without walking! I felt nothing but run up the hill! It got really hard as there was no leveling out for this final 1.4 miles of up! All I knew was to RUN to get to the top! I once had a coach that told me, "push it up the hill Julie, you'll recover...I promise, you'll recover!" I always tell myself this when racing hills now.  I didn't stop, not once. I saw a couple of my running friend on that hill, giving me a little hope and encouragement. I was able to finish strong!

I am thankful for another week of training. I am very sore today, but I know the process. I will recover! Yesterday's race was a great test and I feel like I passed in my own little weird way! 

If you've taken the time to read this, I love you for it! 

PS Purple shirt never even came close to me as I ran up that hill! I beat her! Ha! 

Jerry and I both won 1st in our age group. Jerry 2nd male and Julie 3rd female. We are too old to beat the teenagers! ha!!!